Hard Week (Week 15)

Truth is, this week has been long and hard and emotionally exhausting on multiple accounts. As always, I feel blessed to be supported by such an amazing community, both at home and here locally, but I'm not coping well.

There is a lot to write, and yet I'm not sure how to write any of it.

There is a lot on my heart, and yet I don't understand any of it enough to be able to share it on here.

I'm trying to have faith in God's plan, but dang! that's a heckin' lot easier to say than to do. How does one know HOW to go forward, when they're battling various advice. How does one know how to let God lead when you can't tell the difference between, "This is the plan God has for me" and "This is the plan I want God to have for me?"

How does one express that they are genuinely thankful for most aspects of their current journey, and yet want nothing more than for this chapter to be over?

Truth is, I don't know. I don't know the answers. I just don't know.

But, I do know that I need the support of my prayer warriors right now.

My pocket's a little muddy right now, but I am thankful for much... like the mango and coconut curichi (Pervian version of a popsicle) that Mama Laura just brought, and that parasite medicine exists. I've been well cared for.

~TBS~